Greetings & Happy New Year from Lumwana, Zambia on site at the Barrick mine. I am near the end of my African adventure. It has been all I hoped for and much, much more.
Regarding second guesses - earlier this month I proclaimed that "Living Lurleen" would be retired for something else. Well, over the last weeks I have rattled my uncreative brain for an alternate title and simply can't come up with one. The thing is, I like this one and it still has much meaning to me as it pertains to where I have been and where I am going. For this, I get to change my mind.
So, it stays. I've fought with Blogger all morning to customize the look to something a bit less green and whimsical. It isn't cooperating, so, for now, we'll go with this look until I have the patience to make it my own.
Over the last months I have had the opportunity to revisit choices I have made over the years that have led me to this place. It is so easy to start second guessing those decisions that may now, in retrospect, look like massive mistakes in judgement. I have friends who are also contemplating their life choices and wondering if the past will dictate the future.
I don't believe it does. We do what we do each and every day because we believe in our hearts it is correct. Yes, we can sometimes choose to do certain things for all the wrong reasons but that is the way we learn. No missteps, no knowledge.
Meanwhile, I have been observing as a young woman begins her new life and makes important decisions regarding the direction. I have no doubt she will be fine even if she finds herself taking new roads later on. It is ok. It is how life works.
I suppose the wisdom gained from age and experience or the fact that I simply no longer give a damn about my own missteps has eased my tendency to be really hard on myself.
Whether you are 19, 46 or 57 your choices will lead you down roads you may not have intended. And some you may come to regret. But you can always change the direction.
And if you find yourself sitting in the same spot with the same view your entire life then you really will have reason to second guess.
2014 - I can't wait to see what you bring....
Regarding second guesses - earlier this month I proclaimed that "Living Lurleen" would be retired for something else. Well, over the last weeks I have rattled my uncreative brain for an alternate title and simply can't come up with one. The thing is, I like this one and it still has much meaning to me as it pertains to where I have been and where I am going. For this, I get to change my mind.
So, it stays. I've fought with Blogger all morning to customize the look to something a bit less green and whimsical. It isn't cooperating, so, for now, we'll go with this look until I have the patience to make it my own.
Over the last months I have had the opportunity to revisit choices I have made over the years that have led me to this place. It is so easy to start second guessing those decisions that may now, in retrospect, look like massive mistakes in judgement. I have friends who are also contemplating their life choices and wondering if the past will dictate the future.
I don't believe it does. We do what we do each and every day because we believe in our hearts it is correct. Yes, we can sometimes choose to do certain things for all the wrong reasons but that is the way we learn. No missteps, no knowledge.
Meanwhile, I have been observing as a young woman begins her new life and makes important decisions regarding the direction. I have no doubt she will be fine even if she finds herself taking new roads later on. It is ok. It is how life works.
I suppose the wisdom gained from age and experience or the fact that I simply no longer give a damn about my own missteps has eased my tendency to be really hard on myself.
Whether you are 19, 46 or 57 your choices will lead you down roads you may not have intended. And some you may come to regret. But you can always change the direction.
And if you find yourself sitting in the same spot with the same view your entire life then you really will have reason to second guess.
2014 - I can't wait to see what you bring....
I'm so glad you're back and writing again. I was really hoping that you would. You are so gifted in the area of writing Lisa. I really enjoy reading your posts.
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